I’m on a mission to change everything you think you know about health, happiness and nutrition, and share my own life-changing moments along the way.
I’m a wife to a wonderful man and a mother to two fantastic little people. I’m also a Nutritonist-in-training who wants to help people move towards happier and healthier lives. This wasn’t always my passion and I’ve overcome a lot of obstacles to get to where I am, and I know I still have many more to jump over.
from self harm, drug addiction and anger to budding life-changer?
While I’m not yet even 30, I can say with complete honestly that I have spent the majority of over 15 years of my life depressed and anxious. It started early, when I was just about to go off to high school, and was largely responsible for me losing many friends.
Things got progressively worse. Between feeling worthless and the daily panic attacks at the very thought of going to school or near the shops, I didn’t care about my future and didn’t think school was for me. I dropped out and instead pursued friendships with people on the wrong path. I spent my days listening to morbid music and my nights drinking heavily and doing drugs.
When those friendships ended and I no longer had access to certain things to help me feel better, I sunk further into my depression. Eventually I found something that helped numb the constant sickening sadness: self harm.
It became a nightly ritual. While I’d wait for my mum to go to bed, I’d get my “equipment” ready and laid out perfectly. And wait. And wait. As long as it took. I had to get my little fix so I’d feel better and get through to the next night, even though I knew I would wake up feeling sickened by what had occurred the night before and a little more depressed each day.
So how did I get out of it? What makes a person go from self harm, drug addiction and anger to budding life-changer?
After a year or two of this pattern, one night I hurt myself so badly I scared myself and woke my mum for help. Even though the next day I shrugged it off and was reluctant to open up, I knew I needed help. And so I relented and was sent for counselling.
The years that followed were hard, until I started focusing on my physical health. The emotional load seemed to lighten a little, even though my thought patterns were still completely destructive.
I’ve spent many years since yo-yo dieting, listening to every new “expert” that comes along and if you can name the diet, program or meal delivery service, I’ve tried it.
I came to realise that mental health and nutrition are inextricably linked.
Four years ago, I began focusing on health. Not weight loss. And something shifted. I won’t pretend the last four years haven’t had their bad times, but I can say with 100% certainty that when you are healthier, when you’re eating well, depression and anxiety are easier to tackle than when you’re not. I came to realise that mental health and nutrition are inextricably linked. Of course, it’s a complicated relationship, but one I believe deserves to be researched thoroughly.
I’m now at university, studying to become a qualified Nutritionist. Not only so I can help people who’ve faced similar challenges to me, mental and physical, but so that I have the authority to challenge so much of what we’ve been taught about health. This is what drives me.
I’d love you to connect with me on Facebook and Instagram and follow along. I don’t claim to be the healthiest person. I am a work in progress. But I’ve come a long way and I hope I can inspire you to make the sort of changes in your life that will have a lasting and meaningful impact, just as I have. x